That would be the last time I ever saw my son whole. Video clip and lyrics While I'm Waiting by Hezekiah Walker. He couldn’t hold his head up anymore. 6 people found this helpful. Suddenly, Janet and Tom came into my view. (Matthew 28:20). However, because I didn’t want to intrude on her privacy, I kept to myself. I was terrified and physically sick from the intense fear that gripped me day and night, but I knew I had a choice to make. But since coming home, all they had done together was sit in a hospital. I then went upstairs to TJ’s room and sat with him until he woke up. A tangled mess of emotions had been swirling inside me for months. This is already hard enough, and you don’t need to make it any harder.”. Chandler wanted a simple wedding at home with just a few close family members. The PICU at Mayo Clinic is in the shape of a horseshoe with patient rooms occupying the outside of the curve. Questions like “What happened to our son?” and “How can we help him if we don’t know what’s wrong?” plagued us day and night. I decorated the room with a poster of a Navy Seals Sniper on the wall, a black manly comforter on the bed and black area rug under the drum set, and brown accessories in the bathroom. Stock No: WWDL128879-10. “I don’t know. She took ownership of it and having her there gave me a tremendous break. The Prayer of an Unknown Confederate SoldierI asked God for strength that I might achieve.I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey.I asked for health that I might do greater things.I was given infirmity that I might do better things.I asked for riches that I might be happy.I was given poverty that I might be wise.I asked for power that I might have the praise of men.I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God.I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.I was given life that I might enjoy all things.I got nothing that I asked for,but everything I hoped for.Almost despite myself,my unspoken prayers were answered.I am, among all men, most richly blessed. I am patiently waiting for you anticipating that my blessings on its way. “From his abundance we have all received one gracious blessing after another.“John 1:16. As the day draws near, I find my thoughts drifting back to our journey together. Worship While I'm Waiting. TJ was the compliant younger child, and Chandler was the bossy older sister. They loved each other, they hated each other; they fought, they made up; they were embarrassed of each other, they defended each other; they told on each other, and they covered up for each other. Two and a half years later, TJ would also pass away at the age of 21. Swallowing was still very difficult. Last year as a freshman, he opted not to participate in any of the Homecoming festivities. His testimony during that season is powerful, and he is now prosperous and reaping rewards for his faithfulness. As we waited, I saw him looking intently down the hall, and then his eyes lit up. As I walked through the center courtyard at Jordan Creek Mall, the chorus to the familiar Christmas song “It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year” rang out. They were the perfect match. Why Should You Shop from Home More Often. Add To Cart Add To Cart. You have to see this!” he exclaimed. I've been looking forward to seeing you all week! Immediately after walking into his room, I noticed a calendar with a picture of China, but it was open to the wrong month. God is so good! I grabbed a pen and paper, and I held his hand while he finger spelled, “C – a – n – I – s – t – i – l – l – g – e – t – a – m-i-n-i – f-r-i-d-g-e?” All the air left my body. His body was starting to do strange things. And I was so scared. Thank you for posting these scriptures. I believe in all of the products that I personally feature on this site and would never recommend them if I didn't absolutely love them. I was heartbroken he was injured, thankful he was alive, terrified of the future, hopeful for recovery, grief stricken beyond belief all rolled into one, and that tangled up mess was like an overfilled balloon begging for an outlet. These special boys had fought many battles to recover their health, and now they were doing well. I was really hoping and praying we would get a diagnosis and then they could fix him. I’m so thankful we have a Savior who knows the grief and pain experienced from the death of a loved one. Celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ is the most wonderful time of the year. Although on the outside they may appear joyful, sorrow lurks just beneath the surface. December 25th marks the day the long-awaited Messiah came into the world to free us from the grip of sin and death. Truthfully, I was a bit bummed on Homecoming night seeing all the pictures on social media of all the kids and their dates. I desperately wanted to cave into the fear and scream and go berserk, but I chose to have courage and walk through the fear believing that God was by my side. Because the God I know says He loves me with an everlasting love. 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